After I shared yesterday’s post, I got some pretty cool comments. People say, “Don’t read the comments,” and they’re usually right, but in this case, do read the comments. So far, they’ve been pretty awesome.
David, I’m interested in seeing you write all this out positively. What do you believe about God? Knowing you, as I do, I see that your are wrestling with your old understanding of God. Yet, what can you affirm about God? Also, where do you ground these affirmations?
I don’t know what I believe about God anymore. I don’t know what I can affirm about God. I haven’t thrown off everything, but I haven’t fully re-imagined God yet either. Barely even a little bit. Honestly, it’s all rather exciting, suddenly not having answers. I go to church and chapel and class and I hear scripture and I consciously try to throw off my notion of the God I don’t believe in, and suddenly it’s unfamiliar and fresh and interesting.
Of course I will keep arguing that God is love and God is just and that those words mean for God what they mean, and not their opposites. I will continue to draw from scripture as an authoritative source for truth about God, whoever or whatever God is.
But all that doesn’t really answer Chris’s questions, because, as I said, I don’t really have answers, so I can’t tell you where I’ve landed.
However, I am thankful for Lutheran minister Daniel Skillman and his fabulous Facebook page and a short series of posts he wrote a while ago about what he means when he says “God.”
I had them in the back of my head during my most recent crisis of faith, during which I (honest truth) started doing google searches to find out if there were any Christian denominations that would ordain you if you didn’t believe in God.
But I found hope in Daniel’s posts. “Maybe I can believe in God,” I thought.
Here’s some of what he said:
When you put it that way, I guess I do believe in God. At least, I believe in the God Daniel Skillman believes in.
After I searched Daniel’s Facebook posts and read those, I started wondering what else might lay along that stream. I asked Google, “What do you mean when you say ‘God?'” To no one’s surprise, Jesus-is-Savior and The Gospel Coalition were silent on the subject.
I got a few more fascinating responses:
Sometimes I think of God as being like the life energy that is in everything, that joins us all together. God is in everything. God is also in me and in you. I can be in tune with this life energy or out of tune with it. For me as an individual it has a lot to do with being at one with my true self. You know how sometimes you feel at odds with yourself or you know you’re not really being true to yourself? Well, for me, that’s the same as being true to God or it can be. I need to try to live in harmony with God and, if I do, then I’ll live in harmony with my true self and with the world around me.
William Loader, Emeritus professor at Murdoch University in Australia
Some people experience God primarily as a subtle voice or a force reaching out to us. They don’t expect God to act for them physically in this world. Perhaps this is the meaning referred to in Kings 1-19 when the prophet Elijah finds God in the “still, small voice.” Many experience God in prayer, in meditation or in some other form of inner search. Carl Sagan said “By far the best way I know to engage the religious sensibility, the sense of awe, is to look up on a clear night.” Rabbi Mordecai Kaplan experienced God as the force for goodness in the world. If you understand God as a call to you, an awareness you have of a connection or as a link to higher consciousness, choose Option 4: I experience God in subtle ways and I know there is more to the world.
Rabbi Larry Seidman, Ph.D, in the Orange County Register
There’s an article by Rev. John. Buehrens at the Unitarian Universalist Association’s website that I thought was pretty cool as well. I would’ve quoted it but I couldn’t find a way to get a snippet I liked without quoting the whole thing.
Philip Goldberg wrote another piece I found compelling at the Huffington Post.
These are not my conclusions, and this is not where I have landed, but these ideas have given me space to say, “Yes, I do believe in God,” because I believe in this stuff. I’m still working through whether I can call those things “God,” or even if this is a useful way of talking about God, but these ways of talking about God have been helpful so far.
It’s weird, migrating from a land that is familiar to somewhere unknown, but if Abraham could do it, then it’s time to pack up my tent and strike out to a land I haven’t seen and to which I have yet to be led to by a God about whom I don’t know nearly as much as I thought. (See? That’s what I’m talking about where the Bible is exciting again!)
If I can re-imagine God these ways, if I can let myself believe that when Daniel Skillman talks about the things he talks about, he’s talking about God… then I’ll done with doubt. If I can let myself believe that’s what I’m talking about when I talk about God, then I already do believe in God.
And I always will.